fuck!

i have to go back to being a hermit and finding free entertainment. i don't know where my money goes, and that is scary. i used to be oh-so-careful. i need to somehow go back to the place where going to whole foods was a luxury. this might take some time. i don't want to ask for money. i shouldn't have to get bailed out when life gets hard. i'm just going to keep blaming the car because fixing it is what got me into this mess. the sad part is, is that it's not completely fixed yet.

fuck!