d e v a s t a t e d .

this week has been a bad one. i came back from mexico to find out i no longer had a job. it's a really shitty situation. i feel like i have a knife hanging out of my back and had a really bad break-up. it's not fun getting blindsided by something and from someone who is one of your best friends. so, now my full time job is finding a job. so far there has been nothing. i've been occupying my time by volunteering at mobile film school helping them prepare for their next workshop and building their database. i've sent emails to tons of people seeing if they know of anyone looking for help. i've sent out one resume for a development position mainly working with a database.

i wish i could elaborate more on how i feel. i can't eat. i'm numb. i can't help crying whenever i think about what has happened. all i want to do is call my mom, but i can't because she is still in mexico. it's been a really bad week.

You may want to have more stability in your everyday routines, such as diet, exercise and sleep. But there can be too many distractions these days, making self-discipline even tougher than usual. You may reach a point where it's healthier to let go of control, instead of frustrating yourself by trying to tighten your grip on reality. Tomorrow is another day.

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sometimes these things are so right it freaks me out.

h e r m i t .

it rhymes with kermit, and i've officially become one. with only $40 some odd dollars in my checking account until next week, i'm not allowed to leave the house. i foresee this being my way of life for a undisclosed amount of time. i'm going to fondly take to drinking and reading on the porch now that the weather has cooled off. i should learn to read my tea leaves because earl grey with soy is going to be my new diet.

come on over, we can watch a netflix!