d e v a s t a t e d .

this week has been a bad one. i came back from mexico to find out i no longer had a job. it's a really shitty situation. i feel like i have a knife hanging out of my back and had a really bad break-up. it's not fun getting blindsided by something and from someone who is one of your best friends. so, now my full time job is finding a job. so far there has been nothing. i've been occupying my time by volunteering at mobile film school helping them prepare for their next workshop and building their database. i've sent emails to tons of people seeing if they know of anyone looking for help. i've sent out one resume for a development position mainly working with a database.

i wish i could elaborate more on how i feel. i can't eat. i'm numb. i can't help crying whenever i think about what has happened. all i want to do is call my mom, but i can't because she is still in mexico. it's been a really bad week.