the last day is a good day.

i welcome 2009 with open arms and a smile! come 'er, good looking!

this has been the most unhappy christmas to date. it just didn't feel like christmas. there was no tree. there were no presents. it wasn't cold and it was rainy/foggy/misty the whole time. i felt like i was in high school again and had no transportation. i developed the sinus infection from hell as well. i didn't even get to see my best friend for more than an hour. however, i did get to eat some barbeque, watch some movies, and i got two adorable new coats. i also read a lot! my mother has no tv channels and no internet connection at her house. it's like walking into the stone age when i go home.

i'm ready to be well again, to start working, and to get back to my life.

i just ate dinner with nutt and evan. yummy and fun!
i'm headed to north carolina tomorrow for a week of home-cooking and mountain-lovin' fun!
finished reading "revolutionary road" last night. amazing!
i'm pack and looking forward to a day of people watching and reading at the airport tomorrow.

u g h .

i talked to the unemployment office this morning. i could seriously hurt her! never work for your friends and never become friends with your boss. there is something to be said about working in an environment where everyone has their role and positions. working in a small group will just come back to bite you in the ass in the long run. i want to sever all ties and never ever have to see most of them again. it just shows you who your true friends are. i would never do this to one of my friends, at least not in the way this has gone down. but then again, i'm not passive aggressive and scared of confrontation. i don't care if people like me or not.

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this blog has totally become a sounding board for my frustrations with life. remember when i posted about movies and fun stuff. 2008 is the year of suck-age.

e m p l o y m e n t .

yay!
i will have two jobs come the new year! nursery attendant and natural grocers cashier!

but, how am i going to pay my bills between now and then when the unemployment phone line is always busy?!? maybe it will ring tomorrow and i will get all the confusion squared away. i need that $310 bucks a week.

this is a good news day! there is finally light at the end of my hell tunnel.

n e k o .

chimney falls and lovers blaze
thought that i was young
now i've freezing hands and bloodless veins
as numb as i've become

i'm so tired
i wish i was the moon tonight

last night i dreamt i had forgotten my name
'cause i had sold my soul but awoke just the same
i'm so lonely
i wish i was the moon tonight

god blessed me, i'm a free man
with no place free to go
i'm paralyzed and collared-tight
no pills for what i fear

this is crazy
i wish i was the moon tonight

chimney falls and lovers blaze
thought that i was young
now i've freezing hands & bloodless veins
as numb as i've become

i'm so tired,
i wish i was the moon tonight

how will you know if you found me at last
'cause i'll be the one, be the one, be the one
with my heart in my lap
i'm so tired, i'm so tired
i wish i was the moon tonight

- i wish i was the moon, neko case

i just watched a documentary on the jonestown massacre. i will never understand cults. they baffle my mind and are so intriguing. now, there's one on about charles manson. i heart msnbc on sunday nights.

r i p .

clove.



rest in peace, old girl. you were the best dog any family could ever ask for. you will be missed and never forgotten. i hope you found a happy place to spend your few breathes and are now in a place with ginger and you ladies can chase rabbits all day.

l i g h t .

i can kind of see the light at the end of the tunnel.
it's crazy windy outside today. i like it.
i'm not ready for my birthday. another year come and gone and another slew of disappointments.

what's it gonna be??

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