i'm not doing anything at all, yet i know he is interested. it's frustrating as hell. at a certain point, i'm just going to get sick of waiting. fuck!

all i want to do is grab him and kiss him and be like 'seriously, come on! let's make this happen!'

instead, i'll just keep waiting and try not the be that girl that broke some other girl's heart by stealing her dude. fuck!

c h a n g e .

life is in a big state of flux. i'm not sure if i like it or hate it. i'm moving to the east side this month. i'm really nervous to sleep there alone. i wish i had someone i was close to that could come stay with me until i felt comfortable. it's always strange sleeping in a new house.

i'm frustrated also. boys make me crazy. i swear there is some flashing light above my head right now that i just can't see. i'm so confused. i'm just going to ride it out. it's going to happen. i'm just going to keep saying that to myself. wait out for the one you really like. it'll be worth it in the end. i know it.

guh! i want to write everything i really want to say, but i have no idea who reads this damned thing, so i'm scared. i'm just going to keep my mouth shut.