l o v e .

they held each other tighter and tighter. they were afraid.
i am happy in your arms, said seymour.
and i am happy in yours.
is this what it feels like?
what?
to be loved, to be held, to be intimate without the fear of penetration?
i think so.
yes, i think so, too. i think this is what women have wanted from men for all of our lives. i think they want to be held in our arms and fall asleep in the absence of body fluids.
i think you may be right.
they held each other tighter and tighter. they were not aroused. they were warm and safe.

sherman alexie - excerpt from "south by southwest" from " the toughest indian in the world"

my computer is dying - the saga continues.

when i try to play dvds there is a lot of weird green spots on the screen, kind of like it's not reading all the coding off the disc. do i wait until it goes completely kaput or do i just go ahead and buy a new mac and transfer everything then send this one to a computer graveyard/part salvage place?

i know that i can't afford a new one, but how in the hell does one live without a computer? i did that in college and it completely sucked until i got my little gem of a mac for christmas one year. however, times were easier then because i had access to computer labs all over campus. blah! i seriously don't know what to do.

sometimes people just really aren't worth your time, and it sucks when you finally figure this out. i hope that people don't feel this way about me. where you try and try to be the best friend possible to realize they are a lousy friend in return. it's just easier to cut your losses. i just really hate to give up on people, especially ones that i genuinely like and think are good quality people.

s u n d a y s.

sunday is my favorite day. yes, i have to get up at 7am and watch babies for four hours at a church, but for some reason they remind me that you only live once and to just have fun. they are so young and all they want to do is play and learn. slowly, they become connected to you and it's so special when you see them learning to walk and talk. it makes my heart smile.

and then you have the rest of the day to do what sundays are best for - eating, catching up, and napping. today, i took a bike ride (something i haven't done in almost a year - pathetic) to mi madres to eat lunch with some new friends, james and sarah. they are a super sweet couple that recently moved here from nyc. i love new friends. then i read on the porch, called la famille, and finally got to catch up with one of my bestest, lizzie!! the weather was perfect, and i wish i would have gone to park or to jo's to bask in the sunshine and people watch. maybe next week.

i'm officially a sxsw interactive intern. my inner geek is out on display. i write blog posts as part of the deal and my first one was published yesterday.
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i'm so excited to be part of the family. i see good things for my future, but my life is about to get hella busy!

it really pisses me off to know that my car isn't even safe in my own driveway. given, i currently share the driveway with two other cars, but my car has been hit TWICE in the matter of weeks. no one is fessing up to it, but today i sent my landlady an email stating that my car was hit sometime between last night and this morning and it has to be her or her friend. seriously, that's just fucked up and i'm really frustrated!

this weekend was an excellent and perfect one. friday was nicole's birthday. i have known her for exactly three years. we met at a house party on her 21st birthday, and i proudly call her one of my closest friends now. i love how that works out. i made her these delicious fudge-y brownie bombs from scratch and a mix cd. the best presents are handmade, right? to celebrate a few of us went to dinner then headed to the east side to meet up with everyone else and hang out. i'm completely in love with the bars on the east sixth (rio rita, the good knight & shangri la). shangri la is quickly climbing my favorites list. it was a fun and sober night for me. lately, i've been enjoying the fruits of not drinking. it's good for the pocket book and the memory. just get me a coke and i'm a happy camper these days.

saturday was really low key. an old wilmington friend of amory's recently moved to town with his lady and they had a some folks over for drinks and conversation on their back porch. it was the perfect way to spend a warm saturday afternoon. they inspired me to have folks over to our place. we still haven't formally had a party. fourth of july was an attempt at a party that never materialized properly. now, i'm thinking a "i'm going back to work FINALLY" party.

today, was the typical sunday. i watched the kiddos this morning. we had 17 kids during the first service at church. CRAZY! then i met up with some friends at jo's for coffee and tunes. adrienne's doggie got spooked and ran under a truck parked on the street and all our hearts were in our throats for a hot second. then i conqured the task of making pizza dough from scratch and creating these "pizza pouches." delicious.


a very good weekend in my book.