h o r o s c o p e .

it's not easy to open your heart before you are clear about what you want. nevertheless, your courage will be rewarded if you simply share your current thoughts and feelings without trying to get anyone else to cure your ambiguity. the beauty in this is that your openness to the present moment can create a special magic that is not available if you begin with a specific agenda.

do you think joan cusack will ever look back upon her career and wonder "why did i let them do that to my hair?" i'm flipping channels and stopped on working girl, and her hair is outrageous!

so this week and last week have been insane! between sxsw, quitting a job, and starting a new job, i'm not sure what is going on in my life. i've also been going out like crazy, making new friends, and just being social. i forget what that is like sometimes. you can't miss opportunities though, that is how you lose touch with folks.

i had a dream about this boy. i can't shake it. it involved my soul mate, dirty, and this other boy. i don't know him very well at all but he makes me smile and laugh. he also gets my sense of humor. the dream put things into perspective, in a way. i don't want to go into to much detail. i need to analyze a bit more. basically, i think it's telling me to put myself out there. we shall see.

also, i may have found a place to live come june 1st. i don't think my original plan is going to pan out. the girl living there now is a bit scattered and has issues committing, so i'm seeking alternate routes. i might take over another friend's lease and kitty sit for her. it would be perfect, plus she lives in a great neighborhood!

i've also watched a ton of movies, as usual. here's a list:

battle in seattle
an excellent film written and directed by stuart townsend. it's premise is the story of a group of people involved in the WTO protests in seattle in 1999. the people involved come from all sides, protesters, politicians, corporate liasons, police officers, wives, etc. it was one of my favorite films of the festival. i hope it gets distribution, but even if it doesn't, i believe stuart townsend will try his hardest to get the film seen.

nights & weekends
the new swanberg film. typical swanberg, but much more personal. i really enjoyed this one. it was about love, and how sometimes it doesn't work out, but you will forever love that person.

then she found me
a beautiful film directed by helen hunt. watch for this one in theaters soon.

explicit ills
mark webber made a film and it's excellent. another festival favorite. it deals with poverty in philadelphia and how families cope with the issues that follow poverty.

mister lonely
diego luna as michael jackson is priceless.

the promotion
forgetting sarah marshall
goya's ghosts
atonement
lady chatterley
gone baby gone

movie update!

i haven't done one of these in a few weeks. i'm becoming very slack with the original reason this blog was started. does that mean i'm growing and finding more interesting things to write about??

death and a funeral
russian dolls
factory girl
into great silence
rendition
margot at the wedding
after the wedding
redacted
harry potter and the order of the phoenix
becoming jane
romance & cigarettes
fat girls
disturbia
night at the museum
trust the man

the only ones that were truly disappointing were harry potter and margot at the wedding. i think i just expected more. there were a few surprises: after the wedding, romance & cigarettes, and redacted. i didn't know what to expect from these movies and they left me surprised and wanting more. i love when that happens with films.

I've also been watching a ton of arrested development. i just can't stop. it's partially due to my crush on michael cera, but it's seriously the best thing that ever happened to tv. why did it get cancelled again?

sxsw starts on friday. i'm not sure i'm ready this year, but it's here anyway. i plan to watch a ton of movies, sleep when i can, and just drink, walk around and hang out. nutters mcgee gets here tomorrow, which means margaritas, el chilito and lots of laughing. i can't wait! i'm ready to have some friends in town. i feeling a lack of friends and social happenings lately. i'm always wanting to go out or be surrounded by people, but no one seems to be available or ever wants to leave their house. how do you make new friends in this town?? this has been a problem since i moved here.

plus, i've been wondering...does anyone actually read this thing??

parts of the plan that i've stuck to so far:

1. accepting a new job.
2. reading a lot more, watching a lot less (this doesn't include films).
3. living alone come june 1.
4. making new friends. (this is a work in progress.)
5. finding joy in the daily things.

i made a pact with myself in costa rica that i would get back to the things that are really important in life and enjoy people's company and just appreciate every day. sometimes you lose track of these simple things and get wrapped up in the things that bring you down. i've been cooking more, which i love. i've been reading everything i can get my hands on. i've been spending more time with my friends and just getting to know them better. this week i accepted a new job that will have regular hours and i won't spend so much time on my feet running around crazy.

i will get back to this later.

now is time for music and alcohol at hole in the wall.